194: On Encouraging People

A lot of things had happened. But first and foremost, I realized that I haven't lived on my blog's title. Curious Weekends, yeah not curious enough. The content that is strangely lacking about curiousness. But I still have time to make up on it. Anyway, if you wonder why I have named my blog Curious Weekend it's because the original intent that I have for this blog is really to indulge on things that I am curious about. Well, curious on doing things and I wanted to share it with you. But apparently, I haven't. But again I still have a chance to start again.

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For the past few days that I have been reading about entrepreneurship and sales there's something I have come to realized about myself and it's the fact that I have a low self-esteem.

During the time that I was doing a self-reflection, I was reduced to being immobile and depressed. I could not function well for the last few weekends because all I could really dwell on about is how much I feel unworthy I am on things. Maybe it's because of how I was brought up. I do not want to go down on the road of giving a full details on how I was brought up, but to give a little information, my parents hadn't been very encouraging. So yeah, most of the time I feel not good enough on things that I do.

I do not blame my parents for this, because they had been amazing to us. They were not perfect by any means. I guess not being encouraging was one of their flaws. But you know, I do not want to hold on to that. If right now the reason why I feel like if I got involved myself with entrepreneurship and I won't succeed is because if I feel like I do not deserve people's support, then it has to change. I have to change my thinking pattern.

Honestly, I thought it was just easy ... but changing my thought pattern is a challenge. It takes an external and internal support.

I opened this up to my sister, and my wonderful - loving - kind sister is wonderful enough to help me to change.

You know, this is the reason why I told myself to encourage people. I realized that encouraging can change people's lives, and it has so much impact (to their lives). If we think we know someone who wanted to do something but doesn't have enough confidence to pursue it, then let's give them that push to do it because sometimes they just need someone to tell them that they will be fine and they will do great.

You know maybe if we lived on world with less criticism and full of love and support we could have been people with amazing potentials.

Before I end this entry, I'm leaving you with this song by Snow Patrol 'Run' because it fits this entry so much.

  Light up, light up  As if you have a choice   Even if you cannot hear my voice  I'll be right beside you dear To spreading support,

193: On Art

I'm in love with art. This is something that I have discovered just a few years ago. But to say, I've always been into art, but it was ingrained into my mind that there's little to no money at all in that industry. Hence, I grew up running away from it and chasing the life that everyone is chasing.

But I was lucky that I got in touch with it again. I've always been into drawing and writing. It's just lately that I got into painting. I had difficulty with painting because I'm not good at colors and shading. I'm blank at those area. But I was persistent, so I practiced and practiced.

Javert - Les Miserables - Soft touch

my recent painting :)

It's not so much but I've been practicing and I know one day I'll get there. I have difficulty in painting a portrait because human face is just hard to get it right. But I still believe in persistence. 

On writing. I've been writing since I was 10 years old. I've started writing in journal, still been writing on journals. My journal had been the witness of every feelings, dreams, hopes, and longings that I had. I think without my journal I would have gone insane (life issues, you know).

I wouldn't deny that I've been defensive towards writing (I think you have noticed that on my disclaimer). I'm defensive because it's precious to me. I would not deny that my construction is as messed up until now. So yeah, when someone attacks me on it, I sometimes take it personally because -- again -- writing had been close to my heart. 

But you know, I've come to this point where I realized not to be (defensive). Yeah, it still hurts and will still hurt if someone pointed how seemingly pointless, messy, or artless my writing is. But it's okay, I'm writing for myself. I'm writing because it's my art, because it's one of my ways I know how to get in touch within myself.

You know, you might also be one of those people who struggles in art; who wanted to get in touch with their emotion and put it in writing, in canvas, or in paper but has difficulty because they are afraid to be judged, to be discouraged, to have their own craft laughed at, but don't. Everyone started in that point to. Just continue regardless even if it seems daunting. You'll eventually get there. Believe me. Have courage.

192: On Resolutions

It's New Year and it's time again to re-new those Resolutions. Honestly, this year I was not able to write down my resolution upon the year 2013 came, just because I feel like it's useless to do something that I know I might forget the next month. But upon bumping into this info-graphic, it made me think. Maybe you know we've been very unconscious about it but I think the reason why we couldn't get the resolution alive until the year ends is because we are not reminded of our goals, so yeah it dies down. So today, I've placed my resolution on my cork board that's placed on my cabinet. I also had written it down on my planner. I just pray to God that I wouldn't be so lazy to procrastinate on my goals. But I have hopes. So let's do this 2013!

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191: Have Courage! *inserts a mighty barbaric yawp*

If there's anything that I have known about dreams, it's the fact that sometimes inorder for us to take our dreams forward it's necessary to give up on few things. Before, I thought that maybe I can do that without necessarily giving up on anything. But now that I took a step towards my dream I realized that: yes, I cannot bring everything at once. I still ended up giving up on something. But it's okay since the only thing that I have to give up (for now) is my savings. 

And it's only money. I can manage to get the amount that I have given in order to buy my dream. BUT, there's something else that I feel that I'll have to give up too (soon!!). I feel this way because I have realized that I need to buy time to work on my plans. 

But for now I do not want to think about the things that I have to sacrifice in order to reach my goals. But if I come to the point of facing a choice, I know what I will choose. 

I've read about great perhaps in John Green's Looking for Alaska, and I've read about people taking adventure in order to reach their goal. There are risks for me. But of course I have re-assessed the risk that I can take -- so, yes I am ready. It doesn't matter if the future looks uncertain but I am happy that made the choice.

Je Suis Prest. I am ready.

190: Photowalk: Wildlife - Europe!

                

It's 2013! What a great feeling. I love New Year because it gives everyone a hope for having a great year to come. I already have reflected on the things that I want to accomplish and I'll be posting about those reflections tomorrow. But for the meantime, I have promised my good friend Raisa that I'll be sharing her pictures here. She's one of those people who had helped me understand something about photography and I am telling you she's a great photographer. I just hope she realize just as much. She's too humble to accept that fact.

Anyways, these picture was taking somewhere in Europe when she travelled there to go on vacay. If I am not mistaken, it's somewhere in Germany and in France. How dang lucky she is to be able to go there right?

Please enjoy the view, see more of Raisa's pictures @ flickr, and let us know what you think about the pictures!