287: Begin Again

Exactly how many starts should we really make in life? Just last October 24 I have written about 'Starting Again', and right now I am -- yet, again -- writing about 'Starting Again', how just funny is that? Well, for one thing, I am so blessed to have the opportunity to be able to 'start again' because it means I have this time to make up for all the wrong things that I have made, face my shortcomings, and be a better person than I was.

So what exactly is new to me:

1. New role and team in the office

To say, I knew that I wasn't performing at my best on my previous role. I knew that I kept on coming short on my goals, and was always rushing to meet deliverables. There were too many 'I should have done this, done that' when I was on my previous post, and too many self deprecating moments that I lost my confidence on myself.

There was no one to blame but myself. I knew that I kept on coming short because I wasn't trying hard enough. I couldn't figure out why I always feel inadequate: What is it because I don't have enough time? Because I was handling too much? But one thing is for sure: I wasn't really happy. I wish I had done better, I knew I could have been better but I just didn't do better.

What's good is that I was given a new post in a new team. Equipped with my experiences and learnings, this new position is a ticket for me to redeem, and to prove to myself that I am better.

I know I am better now.


2. New Business Idea

Exactly how many papers have I wasted brain storming on my idea? The last time I have written on my Starting Again  I have spent four months searching for a new idea that's feasible for me to execute, and I am glad that I now I have one. To say, I have already progressed, in fact I can imagine how it will look like, and how it will be. I am looking forward to writing about it soon. Well, I will write about it when I have already executed it.

If you want to know why I need to execute this baby project is because  it's also a way for me to defeat this nagging thought that I could not do it. I just want to prove to myself that I am not a 'good at start' type of person, that I can also make an idea come to life.

3. New Personal Development Group

I have attended a recent Millionaire Mind Intensive Seminar. This seminar is a conducted by Harv T. Eker's group. Harv T. Eker, by the way, is a successful author of the Secrets of the Millionaire Mind: Mastering the Inner Game of Wealth. During the seminar, I was able to meet a lot of people that were actually my friends now. One of those people that I met happens to be in the same location as I was so we both decided to invite people who also lives near for a meet up. We thought that it's good for us to keep the positivity, and the energy alive. I am glad that we were able to make the commitment to meet each other in spite of how busy our schedules were.

I am excited to see more people in our future meetings because the reason why we made the group, besides keeping the energy alive, is to share what we have learned in the seminar because it helped us a lot. We all know that we'll be able to help our friends by sharing it with them too. We want to keep a pool of people who would strive to push others to reach their potential, to let them know that there are people out there who would encourage them in spite of how hopeless life may seem. We also want to be the light to others.

So I am excited to see this group grow. I look forward in hearing more positivity, and people cheering for other people's success.

So those are the things that had started in my life. I am blessed to be able to start again because it means that life is not yet over for me, that I still have this chance to make a start, to redeem myself.

The past few failures that I encountered were really defeating to the point that I am starting to question my ability to succeed. But I am glad that due to my continuous personal development reading it taught me to live on values, and one of them is to persevere.

I am not complaining that life knocked me too many times, and too many tears had spilled, because I know that it's just preparing me for a better tomorrow.