154: Major Revamp Going On [in Blog and in Life] ! :)

Finally, I am revamping my blog. The reason why I am revamping my blog is because finally I came up with a theme. This theme would feature things that I think would help me to be a better person. You see, I have been into self-development lately and I want this to be my channel where (probably) I hope I can help others as well. It's not that I have what it takes to be a ~ I don't know ~ sort of self-improvement-adviser? hahaha! But it's one of the things that I have committed on. What I am going to share here is how I want to improve myself, how I plan to improve myself, the experiences that I have encountered, and the lessons it had taught me. And in doing so, I only hope that I can inspire, motivate people with my entries. 

So there fellow Padawans let's plan and take an action in becoming a better person than we are yesterday. Remember, there's nothing too late.

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153: Turning Ideas into Reality

Write your dreams, they said.

For the past few weeks I have been contemplating about life ~ in general. I do not know exactly where and when I have gotten into this self-commitment that I want to change. But I believe that I have made this decision when I started attending financial wellness seminars and I started reading self improvement entries. I believe it was because of the recurring inspiring stories that I have been hearing, reading that had inspired me to live beautifully.

I always been a fan of people who has certain ideologies, beliefs, principles that they are faithful on. I admire people who are leaders and persistent to see changes. I look up to people who thinks of an idea and make it a reality.

I wouldn't deny that even before I have likened myself to Albert Einstein, Steve Jobs, Warren Buffett, Eleanor Roosevelt, Donald Trump, Margaret Thatcher, Hilary Clinton that it's almost crazy as it may seem for others. But I have done that just because I look up to them, just because I wanted to be like them.

One of the things that I have realized in the few weeks that I have been self assessing is the fact that I don't put ideas to writing. I do not write things that I want to change. I do not act, I merely just think of wanting to change but never really doing it. 

I have many ideas cluttered in my mind, goals I want to achieve but they are so disorganized in my head that I do not know where to start and where to go. Organizing, I realize is very important. Prioritizing what I want to achieve, should also be in consideration. Application of SMART rule also helps (Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Realistic, and Timely).

When I started spreading out the things I want to achieve (after with so many helps from book, articles, and seminars) I am more than happy and excited because I can see my plans, ideas into reality. I just need to be committed and determined to make it come true. But I am all positive. ☺

152: Frustration is good

Planning, planning

So the past few days I have been struggling with what I should be writing about. The reason why I was struggling is because I do not know what I should talk about here. Additionally, one of the reasons why I haven't been blogging is because I was spending time trying to think of my own project.

I, seriously, hate being bored and unproductive. I cannot just live working, and going home and be idle. I want to see results. My own results. It doesn't have to be big, but at least something that's creative. So, for the past few days I have been writing about my ideas, and I realize that execution of ideas is actually not easy. It's not easy because I'm the only one working on it. I do not have a team who will work out with me. So, basically it take most of my time and energy.

The past few days I was frustrated because I haven't done anything despite the ideas running on my head. I was disorganized. All the plans that I have went into clutter. The ideas that I have basically die a sudden death.

I'm glad that I have bumped into this entry that had helped me. Now I am more than excited to be productive and actually work on my ideas. I know I have to start back to round one, but I am more positive about the future results now.

I might have been frustrated but frustration never stops me, because I end up assessing what's wrong. Frustration was never a woe but rather my friend. I like how I get determined from this bad feeling. It helps me to continue finding for solution. :)

151: Facing my own fears

Do you love Game of Thrones? I just love that awesome, brutal, intelligent book. Anyway, there is a particular quote that I came across where in I find very true. This quote was said by one of my favorite characters, Arya Stark.

Fear cuts deeper than swords.

Fear might be a word that we just shrugged off. Fear is a four letter word that doesn't seem to bother us consciously, but what we don't know is that it's actually the poison that's running on our blood that's putting us into coma before we even start to make our dreams come true. I wouldn't say that I am free of this, because I have my fair share of experiences where in my fear got the best of me. Fear stops me before I even do what I want to do.

To tell you my story, I would like to indicate the number one fear that I have.

FAILURE.

I am afraid to fail. I am afraid to fail executing my ideas. I am afraid to fail my certification exams, and etc.,  Hence, I either delay doing them or not doing them at all. I want to design and print my own shirt way long ago but never actually have done them. Why? Because I was afraid that it might not come out the way I expected it to. Second, I might just waste my money and time. So, I never really have done anything. Fear had won over me. Thus, I never had my own designed shirt.

My example might be simple. But what I don't know, fear actually is the reason why I have never taken a step towards what I wanted before. And the important thing I have learned about fear is: A smaller fear can be a bigger fear.

I knew I cannot live on fear, so I made a way for me to address them.

I put name on my fears

I write all the fears that I have, because I believe fear is the enemy I have to know. I cannot face my enemy without knowing them. Thus, in my opinion, it's important that I am conscious of my own fears. Hence, I identify them.

All the Pros and none the cons.

I don't think of the cons in facing them. I just write down/think of all the good things that I will get when I conquer them. Writing down the cons, makes me realize how important for me to face them.

Get inspired

I love words of wisdom! Words of wisdom gets me fueled. It inspires me to eradicate my irrational fears. This makes me realize how important my pros are, and how I should fight for my dreams to come true despite of my fears.

Pray 

Our priest once said that "Prayer changes people". I also believe the power of prayer, I always pray for strength to face my fear. It helps!

You, what are you ways to face your fear?

150: Moved On from the Pain

It's been quite a while since the last time I have written here. The thing is, I drifted away because I was in "moving on" process, hence my last post.

Anyway, the past few weeks were another self discovery moments for me. Among the things that I have discovered, I conceived how much would my emotion do to try to beat to my knees. During the time that I was moving on, I was controlling my mind from wandering back to the person involve. I try to be productive just to divert my attention. I also tried so hard convincing myself that if I want to move on I must stop clinging on the thought of going back. Additionally, I try not to wonder about the "what-ifs" or console my longings. I was afraid that if I did, I might tell myself to try it for the last time. I have decided that I should look forward. I must look forward. So, those steps were essential for me to take.

Know when to let go

I wanted to empty out all the hurt that I had.  So when I was more in control of myself, I wrote about how I felt. I know it might sound contrary of what I just said but I allow myself to grieve. I do this so I could dump all the pain inside. Believe me, it helped me moved on.

I do not write only of my pains, but I also write the small joys that I have; The feeling of gratefulness for where I am now and for what I currently have. Writing about those healed me. Praying to God also have helped me heal. Those things that I did helped me gain back the hope that I have for tomorrow.

Moving on is a process. It takes strength to overcome the pain. It takes faith that there's something good to look forward to. But we have to believe that one day it will all end. We just need to take the first step in order to get there. Know when it's enough, and stand firm on it. The rest will follow. ☺