252: Shaken not Stirred

Remember the goal. It may be far, but it will be worth it.

“You can only look back at what went wrong but you have to move forward, and again, keep the goal in mind.

Has anyone of you experience a real defeat? Something that you know you took the risk because you have to, gave it all, did all by the book, but in the end you didn't get the result you were expecting? -- or at least not yet getting the result you wanted?

Maybe I was naive, but I thought a moment of defeat is something that I can shrug off. You know, something that I think I can dust off easily and move on just like one of those seemingly-easy-to-comprehend-and-do-wisdom?

But heck it's more than that. Sometimes it's easier to be delusional about the fact that failure has not taken place yet. That it's easy to think that when his certain jab of life did was not at all hurting us or our ambition.

Yeah, it's okay. I didn't get the result I was expecting. I'll move on.

But then I got hit over and over again, that suddenly made me think that: Heck, what the hell ... ? It seems things were not working as expected. There is certainly something wrong with how I was approaching my goal, or how I was doing the work but I don't know why suddenly getting up, picking up where I was, what I still have feels a bit too hard?  -- Pride? I'm not sure.

I'm not sure if there's anyone here who had felt that way. That moment that you wanted to do something, to become something, to be damn just good at something, and yet it can't happen. Well at the moment. I'm not sure if it's because of wrong timing, wrong place, or what ..., I seriously have no idea but I'll figure it out.

But whatever despite this moment of defeat, like what my sister said, just do it. Just go back, and start doing it.

Moment of Defeat? yes it happens. RDJ knows.