Sunday, March 30, 2014

250: I am Traveling Alone!

I'm Traveling Alone!
On my last entry: take me to the beach, I have ranted about being so stressed out and how much I needed some space because of all this real-life pressures that has been going on. Out of boredom that night, I started just browsing places where to go and before I knew it I am bound to Boracay this May.

The funny thing is I got myself book without any plans, and I actually feel good about it. You see, it has always been my plan to travel alone but I was just delaying because I didn't like the uncertainty of going on my own. I know others would think it's crazy, but I have read a few blog entries who actually have traveled alone and even recommended it (read: here, here). Plus, my friend also went to Korea alone and encouraged me to do it.

If you ask me what's my reason why I want to travel alone it's because I want to get to know myself better. I have been doing things alone, going to places (albeit locally) just by myself and realized that I am comfortable without a companion. It also feels good because I am able to think clearly of the things that I am doing. I thought why not try to do it for a few days?

Right now, I was looking for places to stay, and what to do and budge my funds. I am glad that I am progressing. I'm actually very excited! Seriously, thinking about it, makes me feel so liberated. I'll try to get to know some locals and some visiting tourists there. I'll pray for a very productive vacation and a very wonderful trip.

Monday, March 24, 2014

#HappyPirate: For Sale: Blogger Layout

Click the link below to see the layout

Hi there fellas,

As part of my Curious Ventures and #HappyPirate project I just started selling layouts as it was always a dream of mine to be able to make a money from being a graphic and web designer. You make checkout Giovanni Raquel on how the layout looks like. I also placed the terms in buying the layout.

Go visit! :)


248: Take me to the Beach

In one of my bucket list for this 2014, I've planned to be able to go to a beach alone. The reason why I chose the beach is because it was always my go to place for relaxing. I'm particular to sunset, and the sound of the waves dancing on the shore.I'm not sure why, but the combination of this two just relaxes the hell out of me.

The past few days had been really taxing. First, there's the issue at home. I do not really want to dwell on the problems at home because I guess everyone has it. It's just that it has been really stressing lately. But the only thing that really gets me is when I see my mother gets so affected with the family issue.

Man, it breaks my heart to see my mom cry. I find it so cheesy and uncomfortable comforting people. I'm not really used to it. But seeing my mother cry just pulls the strings on my heart. There would be moments that when I console my mom, and embrace her I realized how much I love her. I think I could not love her more than I could love anyone in this world.

I'm not really sure why some people takes the people they love for granted? Or why do people hurt the people they 'love'? It's just so ironic and so cruel. I'm not sure but for the life of me, I've never have hurt anyone I have ever loved. I mean, if I can, I just want to make them happy. That's it. I'm not sure why others would drag the people they love for unnecessary drama, or say something so cruel to hurt them. It's weird, it's crazy!

Anyway, the second reason, is because I want a space for me to be able to write. I've been writing lately but the toxicity of the pressure that I have in my job, the goals I have to aim, my obligations just messes up on my mind. I'm finding it hard to write without being distracted.

HAHAHA, okay, I know you guys have read that most of my post are always 'encouraging', 'brave', or 'inspiring', but I hope you do not mind my almost depressing entry. I just need a breather. I'm still hanging in there and far from losing my sanity, but like the obligatory Cate-Blanchett-Blue-Jasmine .GIF, I (just) need some space. 'mkay?

Sunday, March 9, 2014

246: Turned 25!

Oh God. Run Faster Run!

Oh my God I just turned 25.

I literally had blurted this out the moment that I have realized that my clock had struck 12 o'clock earlier and my cellphone beeped greeting me "Happy Birthday". I'm not sure how others felt about their birthday. Yes, a huge feeling others probably felt is being grateful (which I am too -- by the way). Next, is the excitement you have people's attention. And a few numbers more.

But if you ask me, one of the feelings that came to me right after being grateful is the sense of hurry when I realized that 5 years from now, I'll be thirty. Oh my God, indeed.

I'm not sure if there's any rules on how to live their 25th life. But when you are the type of person who has certain goals --- like me every year is an added pressure. Don't get me wrong, the pressure is good. It just tells me to do more and to exert a few miles for my dreams and aspirations.

You might wonder why I exert that much effort? An acquaintance even once said that I shouldn't really shoot for the stars because it's my future husband who's going to do that for me. I was taught on a all girls school where we were taught to be independent. I have learned that I cannot put my faith on my future on someone else's hands. If I want a better life, I have to create one.

Happy 25th self.

Saturday, March 1, 2014

245: Just a Few More Practice - On Playing Golf

In one of my posts here I have written about being a goal-nut. It was one of my goals to learn a new sport (learned how to swim last year) and I have chosen to learn about playing golf.

To say, I have started playing golf (but only puttering) when I was a kid. My father brought home some golf clubs from Japan. I started playing putter at home with a plastic cup as the hole. I wanted to be a golf player then, but time went by and this dream was forgotten.

So, I thought about playing golf (among other sports I have thought) and you cannot imagine how far I've gone out of my comfort zone right after. You see, my family are non golf playing people (yeah despite the fact that my father brought home some clubs!) So if I'll play golf I'll have to do it on my own.

First thing that I did: was to purchase some golf clubs. To tell you, golf clubs are incredibly EXPENSIVE. But with the help of some online searching I was able to find some second hand golf clubs. Then, I contacted the South Point Driving Range at Alabang and got myself trained by a pro.

The time arrangement that I have with the pro was 9:00AM. I went there wearing my loafers, a polo shirt, and my handbag. Went I got there man, the line in the driving range were full of men. All of them looking professionals or businessman. There was some kids but they were with their business-looking-fathers. I totally looked so out of place.

But I already have signed the deal so even if I look so out of place, so different from my skin I -- pursued. Even now I still feel out of place whenever I go to a driving range. First, I don't drive (still going to enroll myself on a driving school) so I basically have to walk there with my 1 or 2 irons on my backpack (because obviously I do not want to walk around dragging a humongous golf bag with me).

But I keep on remembering Eleanor Roosevelt's quote: "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." And I think that quote had continue to push me to do something whenever I feel small. :)

Here I am playing golf
By the way, if you want to play golf send me an email, so I can finally play with other golf-ladies too!

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