208: Music Box: Skinny Love by Birdy

I have been listening to this song lately. I cannot say how much I love this song. I really appreciate Bon Iver's composition but Birdy's version has that melancholy touch. Her version spoke volumes of a sad story about a relationship in shaky grounds. I thought it was a perfect rendition to the original.

Here, enjoy:
 

I tell my love to wreck it all 

Cut out all the ropes and let me fall 

My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my 

Right in the moment this order's tall 

And I told you to be patient 

And told you to be fine 

And I told you to be balanced 

And I told you to be kind 

In the morning I'll be with you 

But it will be a different "kind" 

I'll be holding all the tickets 

And you'll be owning all the fines 

... 

And now all your love is wasted? 

And then who the hell was I? 

And now I'm breaking at the britches 

And at the end of all your lines 

Who will love you? 

Who will fight? 

Who will fall far behind? 

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*sigh* isn't that just beautiful? I love how the song ended with a high pitch "come on skinny love" like how desperate, how frustrated the lines were.

The execution was impeccable, as the emotion in the song was just as much.

207: Life is Amazing

Most of my post here had been me telling how my life had been, how much I wanted to know my purpose, and I know I've spent so much time asking myself what role I'm playing in this world while I existed. While, I still believe that I have a mission to do something essential in this world, I just discovered that I have stop trying very hard.

Crazy as it may seem, I think the problem with my finding an answer is that I let it beat me to frustration. Though, I must say that it brought me to discovering myself more, I must admit that I have somehow let life pass me by. Thinking about it makes me realize how much have I really spent trying to matter to the world, and be the next heroine. 

But you know I wouldn't say that it didn't do me good, because I'm telling you it did better things to me. I think for the past few years that I was trying to make sense of what's happening to me made me a better person. I started to appreciate more, and have fun more.

I think all of us -- or maybe some of us -- has that thinking of wanting to save the world. To matter. To follow the footsteps of people who had revolutionized, who had changed the world. And I wanted to. I desperately wanted to be part of this elite group. But then I realized just lately that maybe I really should stop trying to save the world, to find a cure for cancer, revolutionize the technology because maybe it's not my role. I realized that I should stop playing someone's role. 

So for now, I would stop trying hard. I'll let life happen. If I'm not meant to be the next Steve Jobs, then it's okay. I realized that I may not be able to change the world, but I can start small. And that's what I am going to do from now on.

206: Picture: After Dark

After Dark.

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205: Life Moment: 'Round the Bend

... and I won't start apologizing for the long absence, neither will I start excusing myself as I find that there is no excuse whatsoever for not posting. But I've been insecure, to say (which is the reason why I stay out of here). The last post I've ranted in this blog was that it hadn't been curious enough and I wanted to stop that. I told myself that from that day forward, I'll write on things relevant to "curiousness" but since my mind couldn't come up relevant to that, plus work, and personal goals had been taxing I postponed the writing. 

So 'round the bend. For the past few days I had been reviewing my 24 List of Curious Improvement (among other crazy thoughts that's crossing my mind) and I must say that I've been able to make a progress on some of them. But problem right now is that I never had a chance to monitor them and post them here. Well I must admit: I suck at keeping track of everything. But I think I somehow can manage to monitor them, and post them here. I just -- maybe -- need some reminder what I have to do, and stop procrastinating about it. 

You know whenever I think about my goals, I cannot help but really wonder where my 'God given talent' lies. Everyone has it and I just need to find out what it is and tap it. It's frustrating that I'm 24 years old and still continues to live in a mundane lifestyle, and who's life schedule was like of an automaton. I don't want that. I want to live because I have purpose, because God's people needs me. But then reality would slap the life out of me and make me realize that the only purpose I have right now was to do the best that I can do at work (which I am currently doing), spoil my family, read a book, and be no-one knows about and live nowhere-people-knows-about. And I just can't live like that. I have to participate. I have to participate in life. Else, I'd feel like I have not done my mission. 

And while I think all about this conundrum and the daily wonders of my mundane life I'll have to find something that I can do perfectly -- at least for now.

I'll get back to you and let you know what it is (while I wait for that God given talent to fall upon me).