Sunday, September 23, 2012

173: I'm not Quitting!!

Book: "What are you passionate about? What is something that you do everyday that you do not need to exert effort, that comes so naturally?"
Me: er ... I do not know.
This is where frustration starts. All through out my younger days I always rely to my parents with what I have to do. They decide what's best for me or suggest what's best for me ... until I get to this point that I keep on depending on someone's decision, or waiting for a decision to fall on my lap. But you know when I realize this, I started sorting out my life and little by little I am starting to understand myself. 

If there's anything that I am really struggling about it's finding my sense of purpose. I really believe that we are born because we play a significant role in this world, and we are born with a talent that God had given us. This God given talent is what I have been looking for. In this moment of my life, I have a mission to find what God gave to me, and I am looking for them. 

Sometimes I am beckoned by the thought of just giving up and just go with the flow. But in the end of the day, I just could not settle on the thought of settling and doing what was expected of me. I want to live in this life living what I am passionate about. So, you know, I thought even though it's going to take me years and hell to find my passion I won't stop. Besides, I have nothing to lose right?

To Not Quitting!

Sunday, September 16, 2012

172: Of Persistence

So last week I was not able to post anything about my #BetterFuture project. The thing is I had been spending time really contemplating. Currently, I am reading John Maxwell's Put Your Dreams to the Test and I swear every time I progress on the book it never fails to make me think about my life. I love how detailed the book is about what we want to accomplish in life, how to accomplish it and how to live our dreams. The thing is I always had been confused with what I really want in life, maybe it's because I grew up depending on people deciding for me. I never took responsibility of my life. I lived on people's expectation, on my family's standards, until I lost myself along the way. But like I always said there's nothing too late. So now I happy that with the books that I am reading, it allowed me to look inside myself. And it made me discover what I am born to do. :)

What I have discovered is how I love arts. So yes, lately I had been spending time honing myself in that area. And although I encounter a lot of challenges and numerous frustration I keep on telling myself not to stop. Seriously, sometimes when I start watercoloring and or doing arts it never fails to make me nag myself that I couldn't get the result that I have inside my head. Then, the frustration will set in. But although I have all those negative feelings I am telling you, those negative feelings helped me to drive myself to be a better artist. Plus, the thought that one day I'll be best in this area if I keep on doing it just excites me. This quote, gave me hope that one day I'll be an expert too.

I started to appreciate persistence and the power it has if we live in it. I really believe that it's right that we are born to be winners if we are persistent, if we do not allow ourselves to give up and just continue pursuing what we want in life despite challenges. Passion will bring us success.

I am still in progress and still continue learning about myself about my passion but I am persistent to reach my peak. I hope this for you too.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

171: Oops.

I actually missed a post last weekend for my weekend #betterfuture project. To be honest, I intentionally did not write anything last weekend because of reasons. I do not want to start making excuses for myself why I did not post, but I just didn't. Circumstances and the fact that I had been investing my weekend thinking made me skip writing. But I'll go back writing this weekend and I finally have an *idea* what to write about. It's about something that I had been thinking for the past several days. I hope it's relatable. :)

Anyways for the past few days I had spent more time watercoloring and (finally!) really do something. I love that I never ran out of things to do during weekend. It's the only time that I work on personal stuffs. I do this because my weekdays are consumed with me working and taking a rest. So, I am really happy that I am productive during weekends. Besides, it's also the only thing that keeps me working towards my *personal* goals.

To share to you some of the things I did, here they are:

I align my monthly goals to my themes. For this month, my theme's called: September Sunrise.
I named it "Sunrise" because this month I encountered a lot of new things.
Sunrise is just a perfect reminder of new beginnings for me.

The rubber stamp I made using eraser! I always wanted to have my own stamp so 
I carved this little eraser that I have with my initials. It did not come out bad as I thought it would be.
Plus, it's not hard to do. I also made a batman logo stamp right after I realized that I can do it.

I'm telling you, my planner is amazingly filled with "stuffs".  It's filled with drawings and colors.
I started vandalizing it and it was fun. I like that I am putting a touch of myself on my planner. 
Oh btw, the one on top was also done on my planner. Coolness right?

Okay, so that's it for me for now. I'll be back this weekend. Ciao.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

170: Dreaming of New York

New York. Ever since I got hooked with Sex and the City years ago. I've always got that perception that NY is a city bustling with life. Magical, even. I always have hope to experience it too. It must be amazing and overwhelming to be in the city where everything seems to be possible. Limitless of opportunities. 

And who doesn't get mesmerized listening to Empire State of Mind? It gives me this indescribable feelings. Makes me want more to be there.  

Anyway, before I end this entry here are some of the most dramatic black and white New York City photographs I have seen. They are remarkable. *sigh* It makes me wonder when will I ever get to be there. I am not losing hope though. I know I'll get there. :)



Sunday, September 2, 2012

169: Be Curious.

"Curious Weekends" I declared to my friend who I was sharing the idea with. I told her that I wanted to  re-do my blog and make a significant address. I thought that the ohmyhael is a little too personal and does not have any theme at all. So I opted to go with "Curiousweekends". My friend had asked why curious weekends, I told her that since I work during the night and that my days are spent sleeping, getting ready and travelling to work I only had the chance to be personally productive during weekends. Thus, it's only the days that I was able to work on the things that I am curious about. 


I have mentioned before that I am a perpetual thinking/wondering machine, so yeah most of my waking  time during weekdays were spent thinking with what, how, why and then I wonder about the things that I need to know/do in order to execute that thought or try that thought. So while I was brainstorming with her, I thought that curious weekends just seems right. 

I think there's a magic with curiosity because it led me to expand my experience and learn where else lies my strengths and weaknesses. My curiosity was inspired by Albert Einstein. Knowing a little of his background, taught me that Albert was able to discover things out of his curiosity. I am not intelligent but I am intensely curious on things. When I get curious, I read and learn about it. This had made me expand my knowledge on few things. Which was helpful for my personal development. 

I believe that if we continue to be curious and do something out of nothing, we'll be able to get to know ourselves more. We learn our strengths, weaknesses, potential (hidden) talent, and etc.,. Maybe it's just time for us to broaden our horizon and explore things we have not yet explored. 

please only be curious on things that would personally contribute to your growth. Don't explore things that you think would destroy you. :p ~ disclaimer. haha.

To Curiosity,

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