273: Definition of Success?

My sister and I usually have one of the most interesting conversation. I am glad of these types of conversation because it does not border on the usual dialogues, most of them were actually thought-provoking. The type of exchange that I enjoy so much is ideas, and about life.  So one day while we were on our way to a coffee shop (hint: the green mermaid), my sister and I were talking about success.

"How can you say that you are successful?" my sister asked as she stirred her coffee.

I was taken aback, that it felt like everything stopped for a split-second, that like as if a lightning just struck the coffeetable between us. After all the exchanges that we had, that's the ultimate question. Yeah, so how can one really tell to that s/he is successful? 

Instead of answering her, I shot back a question "wait, how do you define success? Success is subjective."

The reason why I was taken a-back because there's just no concrete answer to that question (IMHO). Sometimes some people get that thinking that success means having all the materials in the world, when some could say that s/he is successful by just raising healthy-God fearing kids. So, I'm not sure if my definition of success is the same as to what my sister is thinking.

My sister answered me of her definition of success. It actually ended up listing down the things that she wanted to achieve. I gave mine as well in list. While I was telling her what I want to achieve, it dawned on me that yeah maybe success is after all an achievement of things that we want. :|

It's actually funny, because when we think of success, material things suddenly pops into the mind. I guess we already have that preconceive thoughts because of the influence of the media. But I think if we look into our hearts, we have our own definition of success that is free from society's definition. How simple. Defining what we really want, getting it, is what makes a success. Basic.

So you, my dear readers, how do you define your success?

186: Self Loathing is the Way to Wake Up

'Francois Rabelais. He was a poet. And his last words were 'I go to seek a Great Perhaps.' That's why I'm going. So I don't have to wait until I die to start seeing a Great Perhaps

This book speaks to me so much, just as the previous book that I have read talked to me. I love the concept of being brave and going to a world we are not sure of. Throwing certainty to find adventure, find the treasure we are suppose to find. I read it because it was the kind of life I hope to take (soon!) I really loathe myself at the moment for being a coward.

What I really complain about is the fact that I was nurtured to take the 'careful' steps: to do well in life. Don't get me wrong there's nothing wrong with this kind of upbringing, but then I thought of missed opportunities; of missing what life supposed to be. I mean okay, I'm employed in a well company, earning well. I can't say anything bad to where I am, but then again so what? So is this all what I will be until I left the world?

Does living well in the world all that it takes? Just that? Being employed and working hard? Will I work hard for the next 20 to 30 years of my life? What life is really all about? I just don't find any significance in living just to live. I think we are born to be something else. I just could not ducking figure out what. And this upsets me.

[update] hah, and then I see someone posted this video in my newsfeed. Life, you're talking to me.

180: Sunset

Don't you think that there's something so strangely saddening when we watch sunset? You know, I seriously love sunset than sunrise. Maybe it's the fact that I am a loner by heart, that's why sunset appeals to me more than sunrise. You might wonder why I associate 'loner' to sunset, but it's something that I have read that people who prefers sunset are lonely. Long story, don't ask. hah.

But I am writing about sunset because for the past few days there are a lot of things that has ended and has been ending. And sunset is the perfect reminder when something ends. It's a sad but basic truth: when something start, it has to end. Sunset and Sunrise. But you know it's a human nature (or so I think) that we do not try to dwell on endings. Thus, when we reach that point when something ended we felt surprised. We try not to embrace on the thought that probably the one sitting next to you will soon  be leaving your life. The one holding your hand at the moment will be letting go. Yes, admit it we never thought of such thing but it's an obvious and simple truth.

Okay we all know that things end, so the question now is there's nothing we can do about it? Yes, we might not be able to make something last forever. But memories does. It's so simple but sometimes we take it for granted. Cherish that something so important to us, make a memories. Cherish the moments with someone, with something while it lasts. ~

24: Apologize

I think I like this one better. Anyway, if you want to know what I am talking about it's my layout. I just changed my layout from a designed one to this almost empty (layout). There's really no particular reason why I wanted to change, aside from the fact that I am bored with my previous one.

For today's entry, I want to write about how apologetic I am because I have been absent for so long. I guess it's fair to warn you to not be surprise if I apologize quite often, it's because I always feel bad if I know I have been neglecting what I should be doing.

So there, I'm sorry.

And I mean that with all sincerity.