177: Doing an Extra Step!

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The past few weeks had really been a great challenge for me. For one thing, I have to design the interior for our event. And for another, the time allotted for me to work and the budget that's a little limited was honestly daunting.  Since the event was the first time for two teams to be together, I challenge myself to go way beyond "okay". I thought about wanderrgirl's 'Note to Self': Not settling for something good while I was brainstorming, I told myself that since I am the lead for the comms/marketing I might as well take the extra step. This is when I started juggling the thought if I could really do it even if I have too many responsibilities in my real role at work. 

The only solution that I could think about was that I could allocate some time. I thought that if my work starts at 8PM I could come at 6PM so I could start working on the decorations and not compromise my working schedule. Honestly, it was HARD. haha! I arrive home every 7:30AM, then I have to wake up around 2PM so I could arrive at 6PM in the office. But despite the sacrifices I have to say that I did enjoy every minute of working. 

So for three weeks of working on the decorations, for three weeks of not having a decent sleep I was glad it paid off very well. I am glad that I have added beauty to the event, that I did not only become a part of the gathering but participated to bring life and color in the party. I was involved.

Remember my post about "What can you do to help someone next to you?", this is it. I helped even on the simplest thing as decorating, and was fulfilling. Extending a hand without regrets, without demands, and just doing it for sheer happiness it can brought to people was an incredible, amazing feeling.

You know, just to end this a friend of mine asked me why I was doing it, she asked "eh, you're not being paid doing that why did you accept the task? Now, you're biting off more than you can chew. Give it to someone else." 

Maybe it was my being ADHD or the fact that I am sort of a masochist that made me say, "On contrary, I actually enjoy it." But whatever it is I felt the resonating honesty (in my answer) deep within my soul. 

To constantly helping,

164: Finding Our Passion

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"The problem is I don't know what my passion is", thus said my friend. 

Do you know what your passion is?

I wouldn't deny that I suffered to this too. I did not know where I am passionate about because I am a diverse kind of person. When I see something interesting I try to do it too. I think the problem with me was that I try to re-live other's passion. Since I focused doing other's passion, I didn't find out what was mine. But I was lucky enough that I got conscious about this and had my "self-defining" moment. I have realized that mine definitely fall into arts.

Now that I realized I love arts, there's something else that I have to figure out (again!). So, what I am trying to know right now was where exactly in arts? To say, I found out that these things interests me: cooking, writing, crafting, drawing, reading, watercoloring, designing, and photography.

I cannot yet make a conclusion because honestly I love them all and I haven't felt the right one. But I was happy enough that at least I have defined myself. Now, my good friend and I have been planning to find where our passion lies. We've been talking HUGELY about it and planning how we could hone our passion.

I think I was lucky I got conscious of this, because as my sister puts it, there are those who doesn't know what they really want in life. I do not know which to blame, but it's probably the media because it diverts us to finding who we really are. But maybe it's also our fault because we let it define us. But it's not too late, we still can find out what we want in this life.

Before I end this post, I dedicate this song to this entry. If you watched the trailer Perks of Being a Wallflower, you'll recognize this. Plus, this song reminds us that we are on our way (finding ourselves). :)

No, it seems you're a lot like me

You dug yourself into places you never thought you would be

Don't you fret and don't you mind

The only constant is changing

You never know what you'll find

Yeah, tomorrow I might wake up nice and clean

I might believe the things I said I didn't mean

This might turn and wind up just the way we dreamed

and I might become the things I swore I'd always be

To finding our passion!

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