New York. Ever since I got hooked with Sex and the City years ago. I've always got that perception that NY is a city bustling with life. Magical, even. I always have hope to experience it too. It must be amazing and overwhelming to be in the city where everything seems to be possible. Limitless of opportunities.
And who doesn't get mesmerized listening to Empire State of Mind? It gives me this indescribable feelings. Makes me want more to be there.
Anyway, before I end this entry here are some of the most dramatic black and white New York City photographs I have seen. They are remarkable. *sigh* It makes me wonder when will I ever get to be there. I am not losing hope though. I know I'll get there. :)
"Curious Weekends" I declared to my friend who I was sharing the idea with. I told her that I wanted to re-do my blog and make a significant address. I thought that the ohmyhael is a little too personal and does not have any theme at all. So I opted to go with "Curiousweekends". My friend had asked why curious weekends, I told her that since I work during the night and that my days are spent sleeping, getting ready and travelling to work I only had the chance to be personally productive during weekends. Thus, it's only the days that I was able to work on the things that I am curious about.
BINGO.
I have mentioned before that I am a perpetual thinking/wondering machine, so yeah most of my waking time during weekdays were spent thinking with what, how, why and then I wonder about the things that I need to know/do in order to execute that thought or try that thought. So while I was brainstorming with her, I thought that curious weekends just seems right.
I think there's a magic with curiosity because it led me to expand my experience and learn where else lies my strengths and weaknesses. My curiosity was inspired by Albert Einstein. Knowing a little of his background, taught me that Albert was able to discover things out of his curiosity. I am not intelligent but I am intensely curious on things. When I get curious, I read and learn about it. This had made me expand my knowledge on few things. Which was helpful for my personal development.
I believe that if we continue to be curious and do something out of nothing, we'll be able to get to know ourselves more. We learn our strengths, weaknesses, potential (hidden) talent, and etc.,. Maybe it's just time for us to broaden our horizon and explore things we have not yet explored.
please only be curious on things that would personally contribute to your growth. Don't explore things that you think would destroy you. :p ~ disclaimer. haha.
For the past few days I have exhausted my time trying to hone my skills in drawing, writing, and watercoloring. Spending time trying to be better in this area is just fulfilling. Though, I must admit that I had ups and downs, hits and miss. Sometimes I get incredibly impatient and frustrated because I don't get the outcome I was expecting, but I believe if I just continue practicing, I will eventually excel in them.
So in order for me to be better in them I thought that I'd practice every week, as long as my time permits. Then, learn from the expert by joining workshops or enrolling myself in a short class. ✔
Anyway, for the past few days I have been a recluse. I find it very calming because it gave me time to think about what I want to happen in my life for the next few years. I'm telling you, I am a perpetual thinking machine. I love ideas, thoughts, and plans. So, during my time of being alone I was able to contemplate and really thought about my life. I must say that thinking about my life and my life in the future took my emotions in different levels. It was all a mixture of sadness, frustration, excitement, and longing.
But even though I had felt sad, I focused on what I could achieve few years from now and it made me excited. I thought that if I just continue doing what I am doing, be good at what I do, remain faithful, keep the attitude, and trust God that He has wonderful plans laid out for me, the future will be good.
* HAHA, you know what ... up until now, I still have that feeling ... that mixture of feeling of longing of life, of the sense of hope for a better future, but I don't know maybe it's because of where I am right now, or maybe because I am just so frustrated with my artworks, or maybe it's because I'm PMSing ... but it's okay, this will pass. Emotions is a passing moment, it will eventually be gone.
what I had been doing, practicing drawing and drooling over Robert Downey Jr. Sorry for the sucky phone camera.
The last time I had written here, I talked about Plans. I think it's just right that I write about Taking an Action. Honestly, I am one of those people who's always in the brink of not doing and doing. Here are my issues why some of my ideas die just before I execute them: First, lack of budget.
The fact that I do not have budget for my plans is just frustrating. I envy those people who have the means to support their ideas because they have funds they can pull up when they need it. Now, I have learned better, I have started saving up for it. Being able to personally finance my idea is tough, but I think and I believe it will be worth it because I know I'll double the effort to make the idea really work knowing that it came on my pocket.
Second, procrastination. I just hate myself when I do this. I literally switch in self-hate mode when I have procrastinated just because I am not ready to face the daunting chances of failing. I don't know, but this is something I have to improve on until this day. Sometimes, I delay the production of my idea just because I get scared that I may not get what I was expecting and realized how much money and materials I have wasted. (But come on, it's so much better if I try right? Damn, self deal with it ok? - lol).
Third, human resources (preferably, enthusiastic and optimist). Dude, I'm telling you it's so much better to work in group rather than work alone. Thus, this is an incredible frustration at all. You know, before I thought that "yeah, yeah I can do it alone", but nah-uh, I realized that suggestions, comments of improvement, hands-on helpers are important. Sometimes there are ideas that are just so hard to execute alone. Yeah, it maybe possible to do it alone but ... still ... it's so so much better to have someone to work with: who can cheer, criticize, and work with me.
There are a lot of issues I have to face, but I am thankful that I was able to sit on the reasons why sometimes I fail to execute my ideas and finally address them. You might ask, so am I able to execute my plans/ideas now? -- Well that's something that I'll share next time.
I'm ending this entry with this song from Des'Ree (one of my motivating songs) - You Gotta Be. I think this is just perfect.
eek. I am so sleepy. The past few days had been really draining. There were many things to finish, many things to accomplish, and many things to plan. But I am happy that I was able to get a very long sleep yesterday. I felt restored. Now, I had a very long day. I still need to finish a couple of things then I am set to snooze. I still feel tired despite all the long sleep.
Anyway, the past few days had been interesting as most of the people I know are concern about what they want to happen in their life. There are those people who can see clearly what they want to happen. Then, there are those who goes on in this life taken by the waves (of life).
If you'd ask me, I'd say that I am one of those people who set goals. To begin with, I love setting goals. The reason why I love setting goals is because I learned that living and achieving these goals gives me direction of what I want in life. Goals leads me to the path of my dreams.
Honestly, when I had graduated in college I thought that the world was one big table of foods served buffet, and since there was a lot of things to choose from it gets baffling. But when I sorted out what I want to be and where I wanted to be in the next few years, it had led me to the path where I am right now.
In my experience, setting goal can be tough. Achieving self-goals takes a hard work. It's a hard work because it takes disciplining myself to stay committed to it. It takes courage not to stop even though I failed too many times. It takes guts to continue when it seems there's no reason to go on. But daydreaming of the rewards was my ultimate reason why I should continue and fight back.
I never knew the importance of goals until I realized to myself that it was leading me to the path I wanted. If I did not recognize its importance and just lived where life would take me, I will be floating in the waves led by how life will take me. And that's something I do not want to happen.
So set goals well, live the life you wanted, and stay committed to it.
